Once the soul awakens, the search begins and you can never go back. From then on, you are inflamed with a special longing that will never again let you linger in the lowlands of complacency and partial fulfillment. The eternal makes you urgent. You are loath to let compromise or the threat of danger hold you back from striving toward the summit of fulfillment.
— John O'Donohue

Dear adored one—

I'm dodging commercials on Spotify right now as I sit in the dark writing to you.

I took most of 2017 off to write about eschatology and tend to some necessary matters in my heart and home. It's not been an easy year, but it has been exactly perfect and I bless the Lord & my husband for their patience & grace. The past several months have brought love and great loss, 180-degree turns, releasing and rejoicing, important relational shifts, and I've wadded up about a truckload of tearful kleenex in the process. Now I'm beginning again with all-new almost everything, including myself, and it feels so whole and true and good.

So as you linger here, consider yourself gathered close with a soft, warm hug. For who I am, where I'm at, and everything else you need to know, read on...

I believe the world needs less glamour and more beauty.

We need less stuff and more generosity.
We need loving truth tellers and gentle heart holders.
We need less looking-at and more seeing-in.
We need less busyness and more quietness.
We need less “shoulds” and more stories.
We need less followers and more examples.
We need less sugar and more poetry, tears and joyous laughter.
We need less self-preservation and more brave vulnerability.
We need less possessing and more longing.

I believe that our deep longings are God-given invitations to connect with the one who made us. “He has put eternity in their hearts,” wrote King Solomon. The urgency of the eternal is the breath and blood, the spirit and secret heart, of longing.

Want to live a meaningful life? Want to find your soul's purpose? Want to know why you're here and what you're made for?

Listen to your tenderness. Walk into your longing. It takes otherworldly courage to look below the glamour and stuff and busyness and self-preservation and shoulds and cake and followers, but I believe your hunger is a direct line from the Beloved to your soul.

Lean in. Allow. Don't run from; run to

“You have made us for yourself, O Lord, and our heart is restless until it rests in you.”—St. Augustine

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Your longings are sacred to me.

My name is Hillary Rain and I am a Spirit-filled writer, photographer & mentor for holy wild women.

“What does that even mean?” you ask.

Years ago I was certified as a holistic life coach. This is a rococo way of saying that I use a mind-body-spirit-lifestyle approach to help my clients transform their lives naturally. This includes finding ways to get enough sleep, fresh air, and plenty of water while uncovering and addressing deeper layers such as fear, stuckness, not-enoughness, overwhelm, or shame. And then we implement creative (& often unconventional) strategies that move you closer to what you really long for. Hello, living-from-the-soul! Hello, excited-to-wake-up-every-day! Hello, calling-yourself-an-artist! Hello, peace-with-your-body! Hello, freedom-from-guilt! Hello, brilliant new work-from-home business! Hello, joy! 

I'm an independent holistic life coach, but really I'm a creative and spiritual mentor who walks with women through deep or intense seasons of reckoning, creation or change.

I offer emotional & spiritual life support that is grounded in the wisdom from above and practical, in-your-life-right-now resources. You don't need lose sixty pounds before you're allowed to experience lasting transformation. You don't need to make six figures before you do compelling, life-altering work. You don't need to throw out all your Tupperware, pour your raw organic pumpkin seeds into vintage glass jars, and buy dimmable soft white LED lightbulbs to create a sweet, Instagram-able kitchen before you can live a life that is meaningful and beautiful to you.

I'll prove it to you.

I work best with those who come from (or long to return to) a life of deep faith who will appreciate my spiritual approach and thoughtful creative practices. My clients tend to be luminous, humble, salt-of-the-earth dreamers, mothers, artists, or creative entrepreneurs who value meaningful, sustainable and soulful work. We meet regularly over the phone, and it feels like cozy conversations in worn velvet chairs with blush-colored herbal tea in teal Anthropologie cups...with a compassionate listener who is soft, empathic and warm.

Whatever you want to heal, create, stop doing, begin or achieve, you don't have to figure it out alone. Let me come with you.

Between coaching sessions I'm a photographer, but really I co-create art with my camera and the women, babies, and lives I am blessed to witness.

I love gathering tenderness. Come and see.

And I'm a writer, but really I am not a big talker, so the words had to get resourceful.

Sometimes they show up in my journal. Sometimes in your inbox. Oh, and I'm slowly writing a book.

Come close.

✦ Love tenderness, truth & beauty? Say yes here. Every week I'll email something inspiring, thought-provoking, transcendent or beautiful from my journal. It's like you're reading over my shoulder on your iPhone. 

✦ Would you like me to pray for you? I'd love to. Send me a message and I'll lift you up & speak your name to the Father. 

✦ Do you need one-on-one spiritual or emotional life support? Let's lovingly tend to you. 

✦ Crave ongoing, full access, serious support? My membership circle begins January 2018.

✦ To arrange a portrait session, learn more here.

✦ Need a new website? I offer Couture Web Design for Squarespace—for a more beautiful, profitable and purposeful online presence. Apply here.

Come and deepen into the presence of the living God.

herbal tea

Like cozy conversations in worn velvet chairs 

and blush-colored herbal tea 

in teal Anthropologie cups... 


For you—the sound of longing

This is what transcendence feels like. 

I made a little playlist for you. Put your earbuds in, press play, 
and close your eyes.

27 things about me

  1. I am a highly-sensitive, introverted everything. INFP, 4w5, empathic, and I'm awkward with my spoken words. So I listen, I write, I pray, I feel, and I talk only if necessary. 
  2. I make my own almond milk. It's delicious and so easy! Place 1 cup of almonds in a bowl, cover with water, and let sit for 4-6 hours or more to soften. Strain & rinse, add to a blender with 3 cups of pure water, and blend well. Strain through a nut milk bag (it's a thing!) and try to decide what to do with the leftover almond meal. Stick it in the fridge until you decide. Pour the milk in a glass milk bottle, refrigerate, and use within five to seven days. Discover the almond meal that is now dried out and hard because it got lost behind the jar of salsa, the yogurt, and the carton of eggs. Regretfully throw it away. Repeat weekly.
  3. Pure incense everyday.
  4. I can't abide: videos or music on websites that start automatically, scratchy tags inside my clothes, and the smell of vinegar.
  5. To me, luxury means waking naturally without an alarm, luscious sheets, gratefulness, living debt-free, loving generously, having clean water, all of my senses, all of my limbs, and most of my teeth. 
  6. Rain, as in Hillary Rain, is a name I've added to my own because it reminds me of blessing, of mercy, of the Father's lovingkindness. It reminds me to love.
  7. East or west coast? Definitely west. One of my dearest treasured experiences is traveling with my husband along Highway 1, top down, sun and wind in our hair, stopping to listen to the seals where the mountains meet the sea. And then standing among the redwoods and biting into sweet figs and luscious strawberries purchased from a road stand.
  8. I'm passionately married to the human I love most. He and I just celebrated 15 years of marriage.
  9. I have a tender and profound love for Jesus. I do not attend buildings labeled “church.”
  10. I believe we are living in the last days as prophesied in Scripture. This provides an endless stream of urgency which compels me to live & love generously, be mindful of my Yes, my energy, time, words, and service, do the work I'm here to do, and to live in truth and tenderness. 
  11. My favorite Psalms are 23, 27, and 91. My favorite verse is Gen. 1:2.
  12. I am a very private and quiet person, with strong boundaries. 
  13. My favorite flowers are ranunculus, peonies, daffodils in the woods, & I think there is nothing sweeter than lavender stems in old vintage bottles on windowsills in the sunshine.
  14. My favorite things are windchimes that sound like church bells, rich coffee, Japanese incense, books, rain, interesting old doors, and falling asleep with my husband stroking my hair.
  15. A few years ago I became obsessed with finding the perfect sheets. I experimented for a year before falling in love with the ones used by my massage therapist. H.E.A.V.E.N. I looked for: softness, durability, affordability, smoothness, staying snugly on my mattress, and did they pass the swoon factor? I settled til death do us part on these.
  16. Lest I give the wrong impression, I'm not high maintenance. Worn old tee shirts (I mean vintage, yeah!) and soft floppy socks forever. And I'm growing out my greys.
  17. My desk stays cluttered but I try to keep within easy reach: my Vanilla Chai lip balm, my phone, pens and notebooks, the holy scriptures, hand cream, essential oils, scissors & something to burn (candle or incense).
  18. I do not enjoy shoe shopping.
  19. I really do not enjoy conversations or questions with hidden agendas, prolonged extroversion, feeling obligated, emotional or psychological manipulation, feeling overwhelmed, and coffee you can see through.
  20. My body loves movement through dance, stretching, and being in water.
  21. I like to write down my favorite words. Meridian. Indigo. Whispery. Liminal. Interesting that they all have at least three syllables.
  22. I have a giddy love affair with fonts. I'm also very picky—um, selective.
  23. My favorite smoothie is this: peel & pit an avocado. Place it in a strong blender (I use a Vitamix, but anything that holds a large volume and can crush ice will work). Add a whole tomato, a peeled orange, a banana, and 2 or 3 handfuls of chopped kale (I buy it from the salad bar at Whole Foods—it's already washed, chopped, and ready to go). If you have it, add a leaf or two of fresh Basil or Mint. Then pile in whatever frozen fruit you have—this is your alternative to ice—maybe a berry blend, last summer's strawberries, or something with Mangos. Top with a splash of 100% juice, any kind, and whirl until smooth. Pour into pretty glasses & share with your loved ones. Optional add-ins: plain yogurt, a little honey or agave nectar, some protein powder, or all-natural creamer for extra creaminess.
  24. Let's autumn all the things! I love when October tempers the searing southern heat. Sweater weather is my favorite. And as it gets colder, I love to bake squash in the oven because it adds a heartwarming & decadent earthy-sweet aroma that must be experienced at least ten times throughout fall and winter. PS. I do not like pumpkin spice lattes.
  25. And springtime. Oh, the perfumed winds of joy!
  26. I'm on again/off again with social media. Right now I'm starting over with Instagram. But ugh, the ads.
  27. For a few minutes every morning, my apartment becomes a rainbow wonderland. The sun rises over the trees and the crystals & prisms in my window paint me and everything else vivid shades of light. It's like living in a daydream.
love, hil